lucifer74

It's been a long time since my last blog.
Nothing has changed much, only the crush seemed less like a crush.
The thing is I think I have lost my track again.
Everyday is like a routine I have to finsh, a tiring one.
The only comfort I get is the series and movies that entertain me.
Isn't that kind of sad and a little bit pathetic?

To be honest, I used to want companionship so badly.
But sometimes, when I am alone, I still enjoy the moments.
No awkward conversation that you must say with one another,
or dead silence that nothing comes in your mind.

Humans are meant to be grouped species, right?
The why the hell am I enjoying being alone.
Is it because of the fact that I will be still conacting with others at a later time?
Or is it the nature of my twisted soul
that enojoys the pleasure of drenching in the sea of loneliness?

Anyway, so much fo the life reconstruction. Nothing really changed at all.
I quit sports and diet, but the good thing is I get in bed before 12 and get up aroud 7.
Hopefully I will keep this on for a few more months, and perhaps actually start sports and dieting.

Well, seminar is coming in 7 days. My powerpoint is blank.
Maybe I should write down what I think everyday,
and see how my mind has changed over time.