lucifer74

Recently, from time to time, I can't help wondering why have I spent so much fucking time infront of the computer.
I love having conversation through internet messangers, whether it's msn or chatrooms.
But if I look back at what I said, most of them are just craps and blah blah.
What have I become? A fucking boring blah blah person who creeps on the internet.

I am not saying chitchats are bad, it's funny and I do have fun out of it, and hopefully the person I talk to feels the same way.
Seriously, I want to have actual deep, problem-solving, or advise-giving conversations, but I guess I am just not the guy someone would turn to when they are troubled.
After a quick glance at the chatskill board on PTT, I realized the problem is I have too less knowledge and experience to share with.
That's why I always say shitty things. It's not because I like to, it's just it's the only thing I know which is apperently sad and pathetic.

So how do I promote my self-cultivation, through books? or what?
But I don't like books. I like visual excitment like videos. So what should I do?
To fit in to the humanity and the great society, walk out of the house more, and stop sitting infront of the computer will be a good start.
Then why am I spending so much time on this article. I don't fu**ing know..
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just keeping a record of my current feelings damn fucking mood